sarah

I just finished Harry Potter and read a little of Eclipse but I can't sleep, so I thought I'd blog. I was just thinking about Sarah and about different memories that I have of her. It is hard to be so far away in distance from the closest people in my life. I remember after she moved back to Wisconsin it was so hard to keep in touch with her because she would never answer the phone. It is so much easier to talk in person. I think we made three different trips down to San Diego together when she was living in Provo. They are all kind of a blur in my head, but I remember how fun it was because we really had time to talk in the long car ride. Nikolay likes to drive and so Sarah and I just talked a lot. I remember her bringing that over sized teddy bear that used to be Erin's and curling up with it to sleep in the car. She and Ariel had a great time teasing each other for hours on end. And one time she babysat Ariel at Grandma's house so that Nikolay and I could go to the temple together. One time we went to IKEA there together and she bought a pack of 100 votive candles and a cool candle holder/lantern for them. We taught her a lot of Russian words on those trips and she would like remember them months later. I think it was when we were driving out to Adam's wedding that she first told me about Derek. I remember her studying her nursing books in the car, so I wanted to look at them, but they had pictures of different kinds of infections and stuff, and I got grossed out so I called it the encyclopedia of gross. I don't know why I want to write all of this stuff down, maybe because I know that with years it will fade. :( I feel so much pain for the sad times in Sarah's life. When she moved out to Provo the first time I felt like I was getting to know her in a new way. When I think about times when she was living at home and I came back to visit there are just fleeting memories of encounters with her. It seemed like she was always trying to take a nap, or get away from everyone. I really regret not making more of an effort to be with her. :(